Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Brain overload

I feel like my brain has reached capacity. I look at my notes and the words dance around the page almost as happily as Jews do on simchat Torah. Yet even as my brain aches and the שכל (knowledge/wisdom/intellect) pushes against the limits of my capacity to hold it, I thirst for more. About a year ago, I read a beautiful passage in an equally beautiful book. The next day, as we discussed the poetic language, I had a sudden desire to feel the words. I hoped that some sort of synesthesia would allow me to physically experience the power of the language that my brain was processing.
I feel this longing so profoundly, so often, that my brain is exhausted. I read Rav Kook, Heschel, Soleveitchik, and I feel a collection of energy inside me that is both excitement and an unfulfillable craving for a more physical and clear experience of these words and ideas.
How wonderful that I have an exhausted and overstimulated brain as opposed to a bored and frustrated one.

I promise there will be some exciting posts to come:
Stay tuned for:
Thoughts on Existence
Beit Lechem
Turkey

1 comment:

anya said...

dearest eliana,

i love your posts, and i am so happy that you are feeing so fulfilled. let's talk soon!

all my love,
anya